I have to share an experience I had this morning. I walked to a bakery nearby and got myself a coffee, and decided to take the longer route back to the boat. A furniture warehouse on the way happened to be open already and all of sudden I found myself in there being amazed by antique furniture that had been individually found, selected and shipped to Fremantle from all over Asia. I couldn't help myself but took a few photos whilst obviously designing my dream cottage interior in my head. A fellow young woman walks past, clearly an employee, carrying pieces of furniture and I step aside to give her way and as I always do I say hello and smile (which by the way clearly is not a habit practiced by older sailors here at the sailing club!). Instead of carrying on she stops and puts her things down and absolutely makes my day, if not the whole week or past year by saying "May I just ask you, if you get highlights or if that is your natural hair colour?". Now, dear reader, you must understand that I am on my hairwash cycle day three. Which means my hair was put up on a high tight bun and this is the day when I least expected anyone to complement me let alone my hair! I was so uplifted that I went on explaining where I get my hair done and that I actually haven't had it done for 8 months now and won't before we return from a sailing trip. I thought that was it, just a quick compliment to a fellow blonde, but I was again pleasantly surprised when she continued the conversation without any rush and giving me her full attention. She noticed my accent and asked where I was from and turned out she was Irish and her story was very similar to mine - came for a holiday but fell in love. She loves the ocean on a surfboard like I love it underwater and under sails. We had so much in common and in a mere few minutes I felt like chatting to an old friend. But here comes the disappointment of not being eight years old anymore when I would have just asked if she wanted to come play with me - I started taking steps away. This was a stranger and I was leaving town. We have our own lives and own circles and surely we don't have time in our busy lives to make friends out of strangers. Why would we, what value would it bring to our lives? Surely I'm just imagining and she probably doesn't even think I'm that cool at all. We were still chatting, but she had already read my subtle body language of pulling away and so she started pulling away too. To round it all up she finally returned to our original topic and made sure she got the name of my hairdresser correct and I asked if it was okay to take some photos of the beautiful interior art in the warehouse. She collected her things and we continued on our paths.
I love it when people have enough courage (or curiosity!) to chat with strangers. Simply just her stopping to have a proper chat but especially complimenting me when I least expected it just absolutely made my day and charged my social batteries a lot. But then I got home and realised that what had felt like a small puddle of loneliness in the morning felt now like the vast depths of the oceans. These adventures we are having with Josh now that we are still young and fit to be comfortable sailing around in a small boat come with a cost. Not just financially (B.O.A.T. = bring out another thousand), but also socially. Sailor's biggest challenge isn't the raging storms of the roaring fourties or getting stuck in doldrums for weeks, or sleepless nights navigating treacherous uncharted waters - it's the loneliness. Not being there for your friends and family celebrating their big milestones and achievements or when they're having tough times. It also means that as a sailor you have no one to rely on and you have to learn to make it on your own - whether it is fixing a broken bilge pump or navigating through the endless depths of our own minds and emotions. Like the ocean the mind is sometimes calm and you can enjoy the smooth sailing in the perfect light breeze, and other times you just try to hang on when the ten meter waves smash you around. It takes just as much strength to battle the challenges of our minds as battling a physical illness.
This often times very isolating lifestyle that we have chosen causes such a dilemma we battle with every day. The excitement and fulfilment we get exploring the world together by sailing but also the quilt from not always being there for our friends and families. I know that the day will come when we will slow down and be there to the point that our loved ones will get sick of us, but for now we can only follow our need to wander and hope that we can catch the lost times back with our friends and families when the call of the ocean isn't as strong anymore. Where does this need to wander stems from? Well that's a whole other topic for another day. Keeping you in our thoughts. Everyday.